I can't believe the year is over already! I feel like it was only a couple months ago when i moved out on my own and my family moved elsewhere out of state. I feel as though it was only a couple months ago when i was loved and in love by a special someone. Honestly, i am glad this year is already at a wrap. I am moving on and so should the year. Gosh, 2010 had it's ups and downs for me, unfortunately more downs and ups. But it's all good though, i know 2011 will be a good year for me [not to sound cliche] because i'm graduating college [i've been waiting forever for this].
Anywho, Happy New Year in advance.
Now playing Tank - I Can't Make You Love Me
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Monday, December 6, 2010
Motherless Child
I had a conversation with my girl today who's trying to conquer something that she feels is way beyond her. Today she asked me "how did you get over it? i wish i was as strong as you are." I had to let her know that i wasn't always this strong, i knew i had the strength in me but it took a while to finally let it surface. I told her that i was in a state of turmoil and depression for a while and it wasn't until one day that something clicked in me, and ever since that day i haven't been the same and will never be the same.
To those of you out there who are struggling with demons or fighting change, stand firm and with the armor of God. Believe in yourself and find the inner strength in you that has probably been pushed down by others. Love yourself. That's all that matters, YOU. When you hurt, you do so alone. Believe in yourself. Know that you are capable of doing things others have said you can't. I believe in you.
Friday, December 3, 2010
Monday, November 15, 2010
Sunday, November 7, 2010
I love ME
how can i keep saying that i'm over it and you but yet i continue to dwell on the past
i'm doing nothing but damaging my mental by not moving forward
i've been in an awesomely great mood since Friday night
a lot of it has to do with watching For Colored Girls
THERE IS A WAY OUT
i made that way out for myself when i finally did something i had been afraid to do for months
i know now that there is no turning back
this is an affirmation to myself.. everything is going to be okay... everything has been okay.. accept it, claim it, live it
my good days have been outweighing my bad and darling, I WILL NOT COMPLAIN
throw what you want my way and I WILL OVERCOME
say what you want to say about me and I WILL BRUSH IT OFF
see it takes more than a broken heart to keep me from SMILING
YOU CAN'T TAKE AWAY MY JOY, i won't allow you
it's as if i had pity on myself, only speaking of what i want to do and be but never actually doing and becoming it.
i've gone on everyday for the past 3 months not knowing how much of a good thing i did
i don't have any regrets
i just know that i still have myself.. i stayed true to the character that i have grown up to be
yes the tears fall from my eyes
and i wipe each one away
who says soldiers don't cry?
because honey, i cry every time i'm alone and don't understand things
we all have our PUBLIC, PERSONAL, and PRIVATE selves
the public is the self you portray when you're outdoors (work, school..), the way you dress, speak
your personal self is the person you show when around close friends and family
and lastly, the private self is the person you are when you are alone, the person that you may be truly at war with
i have come to learn that my public and personal are the same person
it's time to get my private self on board
i realized that my private self was alone and in tears... my private self was needing to be rescued
in the midst of my emotional breakdowns i'm still living, and that is why I ROCK
two things i carry, POISE AND PURPOSE
i'm doing nothing but damaging my mental by not moving forward
i've been in an awesomely great mood since Friday night
a lot of it has to do with watching For Colored Girls
THERE IS A WAY OUT
i made that way out for myself when i finally did something i had been afraid to do for months
i know now that there is no turning back
this is an affirmation to myself.. everything is going to be okay... everything has been okay.. accept it, claim it, live it
my good days have been outweighing my bad and darling, I WILL NOT COMPLAIN
throw what you want my way and I WILL OVERCOME
say what you want to say about me and I WILL BRUSH IT OFF
see it takes more than a broken heart to keep me from SMILING
YOU CAN'T TAKE AWAY MY JOY, i won't allow you
it's as if i had pity on myself, only speaking of what i want to do and be but never actually doing and becoming it.
i've gone on everyday for the past 3 months not knowing how much of a good thing i did
i don't have any regrets
i just know that i still have myself.. i stayed true to the character that i have grown up to be
yes the tears fall from my eyes
and i wipe each one away
who says soldiers don't cry?
because honey, i cry every time i'm alone and don't understand things
we all have our PUBLIC, PERSONAL, and PRIVATE selves
the public is the self you portray when you're outdoors (work, school..), the way you dress, speak
your personal self is the person you show when around close friends and family
and lastly, the private self is the person you are when you are alone, the person that you may be truly at war with
i have come to learn that my public and personal are the same person
it's time to get my private self on board
i realized that my private self was alone and in tears... my private self was needing to be rescued
in the midst of my emotional breakdowns i'm still living, and that is why I ROCK
two things i carry, POISE AND PURPOSE
Friday, November 5, 2010
Monday, November 1, 2010
um.. don't know where to begin.
images that will never erase
images that always replay
images that won't leave because we live in them and find it hard to let go
images that stay the same because we wish to live in sorrow and have pity on ourselves
images
images once mistaken as the only reality, there's no way out
there is a way out
look past the images of the dark and look to the images of light and the future
images that will never erase
images that always replay
images that won't leave because we live in them and find it hard to let go
images that stay the same because we wish to live in sorrow and have pity on ourselves
images
images once mistaken as the only reality, there's no way out
there is a way out
look past the images of the dark and look to the images of light and the future
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Destructive Obiedience: Resisting Its Effects
"Power is never permanent, and ultimately, victory often goes to those
who stand for freedom and decency rather than those who wish to control
the lives of their fellow human beings."
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Lauryn Hill - I Get Out
I won't support your lie no more, i won't even try no more
if i have to die o Lord that's how i choose to live
you just wanna use me, you say love then abuse me
you never thought you'd lose me but how quickly we forget
i get out
i want out of social bondage
knowing my condition is the reason i must change
i don't care if you're upset, i can care less if you're upset.
if i have to die o Lord that's how i choose to live
you just wanna use me, you say love then abuse me
you never thought you'd lose me but how quickly we forget
i get out
i want out of social bondage
knowing my condition is the reason i must change
i don't care if you're upset, i can care less if you're upset.
Inner Struggles
Katharine McPhee - Over It
This song has been on repeat since it was randomly in the mix of my R&B station on Pandora. I love it and can't get enough.
This song has been on repeat since it was randomly in the mix of my R&B station on Pandora. I love it and can't get enough.
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
When it hurts so bad
I cried every night before i went to sleep for a while... and now i don't anymore.
I couldn't stand to listen to slow jams because i always thought of you... now i sing along as if i'm on a stage
oh na na, what's my name?
because of what i have been through, i am a phenomenal woman.
just a side thought: at what point does your child know not to tell others outside what is going on inside of your family? is it like an unwritten/unspoken rule that we all eventually acquire at a certain age? idk
I couldn't stand to listen to slow jams because i always thought of you... now i sing along as if i'm on a stage
oh na na, what's my name?
because of what i have been through, i am a phenomenal woman.
just a side thought: at what point does your child know not to tell others outside what is going on inside of your family? is it like an unwritten/unspoken rule that we all eventually acquire at a certain age? idk
Monday, October 18, 2010
I hope you have a f**king miserable life
Please excuse the explicitness of this post title. Sometimes you just have to come out of your shell only to re-enter it anew.
I'm listening to some feel good music right now, The Foreign Exchange.
I'm listening to some feel good music right now, The Foreign Exchange.
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
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Dear Self,
I am doing better from when i last checked in. I think i just came to terms with the fact that i am single again. It took me a good almost two months but it is what it is.
keep it funky, P&P
I am doing better from when i last checked in. I think i just came to terms with the fact that i am single again. It took me a good almost two months but it is what it is.
keep it funky, P&P
Monday, August 30, 2010
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Old Soul
i write rhymes that fill the lines of my devoted heart
i shed tears that fill the cup of my morning tea
i like hard like a kid's brand new toy he/she sleeps with
and if the paper in my notebook was the shape of a heart, this is what my heart looks like, feels like, and is.
i stand strong like Kunta the slave being beaten
i fake smiles like Harlem in the 20's when the white man did and still does suppress them
i sing blues as if this is ragtime and i can tell you want flew over the cuckoos nest
my walk is a graceful stroll
i stand out even when i stand alone
i used to want to live the American dream, now i wish to dream like Gatsby did
see, my rhymes are me, the words you don't hear like a silent mime
i bleed volumes
and yet i still love and forgive
because that is what i've been taught
and in the end that is what HE died on the cross for
i shed tears that fill the cup of my morning tea
i like hard like a kid's brand new toy he/she sleeps with
and if the paper in my notebook was the shape of a heart, this is what my heart looks like, feels like, and is.
i stand strong like Kunta the slave being beaten
i fake smiles like Harlem in the 20's when the white man did and still does suppress them
i sing blues as if this is ragtime and i can tell you want flew over the cuckoos nest
my walk is a graceful stroll
i stand out even when i stand alone
i used to want to live the American dream, now i wish to dream like Gatsby did
see, my rhymes are me, the words you don't hear like a silent mime
i bleed volumes
and yet i still love and forgive
because that is what i've been taught
and in the end that is what HE died on the cross for
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
India Arie
good morning silence good morning to myself
good morning to the pain in the center of my chest
it's crazy how much i miss a simple good morning kiss
good morning independecne or is it loneliness
i know i said i wanted this but i have regrets
i pray for God's will to be done
the very next day you were gone
good morning to the harsh realities of life
and good morning to the fact we're not husband and wife
we made a promise to stay
destiny got in the way
good morning acceptance
good morning inner strength
i'm loving every moment even the strain
good morning optimism
good morning to my faith
good morning to the beginning of a brand new day
i know that God's will will be done
so i lay down my pain and i'm moving on
it's a good morning afterall
I am not easily broken - p&P
good morning to the pain in the center of my chest
it's crazy how much i miss a simple good morning kiss
good morning independecne or is it loneliness
i know i said i wanted this but i have regrets
i pray for God's will to be done
the very next day you were gone
good morning to the harsh realities of life
and good morning to the fact we're not husband and wife
we made a promise to stay
destiny got in the way
good morning acceptance
good morning inner strength
i'm loving every moment even the strain
good morning optimism
good morning to my faith
good morning to the beginning of a brand new day
i know that God's will will be done
so i lay down my pain and i'm moving on
it's a good morning afterall
I am not easily broken - p&P
Monday, August 16, 2010
No more ties, this is it. Breaking up is hard to do but it needs to be done.
Wale ft Jean Grae - Goodbye (Jean Grae's verse though... she bangs)
Thursday, August 12, 2010
The War - Wale ft Daniel Merriweather
Momma told me be careful who you love... we was different though, things have gotten difficult
Why we gotta argue, why we gotta fight
I just wanna love you, i wanna make it right
It's like we both forgot what we were fighting for
So tell me why are we at war
I just wanted to be at peace with you and if i gotta settle for a piece of you then i gotta say peace to you. With all due respect i do respect you enough to expect; effort is all i ask, if we gon' last more i gotta ask for more, and if that means i'm asking for too much i'm sure we'll end up as our last or past. We bash, we blast, we shoot, we lose, we pass - WAR
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Word.
the blood in my veins runs deep and thick
the blood in my veins traces its roots back to the motherland
the motherland of conformity and slavery
my blood, my sweat, my strength, and my tears
all come from my place of peace
Mama Africa
your pain will forever be learned and heard all over
see we may look alike but we have differences
see i know how to respect and not diss-respect
my strength comes from the mothers who walk around with their children on their backs
my strength comes from the hot sun beating down Las Gidi
see i'm strong because i know my roots
you're strong because you know you're hood
i dream the dreams the slaves never got to see
i live the dream MLK prophesied
with the bondage and shackles broken
we are now to free to do as is
but with social bondage and mental slavery
are we really free
every step we make and take has been predestined by our predecessors
who sit above and continue to be above
Mama Africa how can we connect when half truths are told about your upbringing
The one's who raged about your worth sit back and let you rot
Shame on America and Europe
I'm waiting for your come up
I feel your pain even though i'm away
I hear your children cry
rape
theft
excision
polygamy
everything will be alright. You are not forgotten
Africa
the blood in my veins traces its roots back to the motherland
the motherland of conformity and slavery
my blood, my sweat, my strength, and my tears
all come from my place of peace
Mama Africa
your pain will forever be learned and heard all over
see we may look alike but we have differences
see i know how to respect and not diss-respect
my strength comes from the mothers who walk around with their children on their backs
my strength comes from the hot sun beating down Las Gidi
see i'm strong because i know my roots
you're strong because you know you're hood
i dream the dreams the slaves never got to see
i live the dream MLK prophesied
with the bondage and shackles broken
we are now to free to do as is
but with social bondage and mental slavery
are we really free
every step we make and take has been predestined by our predecessors
who sit above and continue to be above
Mama Africa how can we connect when half truths are told about your upbringing
The one's who raged about your worth sit back and let you rot
Shame on America and Europe
I'm waiting for your come up
I feel your pain even though i'm away
I hear your children cry
rape
theft
excision
polygamy
everything will be alright. You are not forgotten
Africa
The time will come soon enough when i make the decision to stay or leave California. As of right now, there's a 80% to 20% chance that i'm out of here. When i awake in the morning, i have nothing to look forward to but my future, no family to call on or visit, and def not a suitable enough companion who is strong emotionally and mentally. My calling will soon be here and i will no longer be a part of a city that isn't growing. I do hope that when i do leave that the friends i do have left make time to come visit me where ever i decide to start my new journey. I want all of my friends to know that there is life outside of California, there is life outside of your city and it isn't Las Vegas. There are so many places to go and people to meet. Many of you - my friends - are scared to start on your own personal journey. You all know me and know that i have been doing and living for myself for a while now and it isn't going to change. I want to go elsewhere i want to meet people and learn about their history and share mine with them when i become comfortable. I gave up the idea of moving out of state for someONE, later to find out that it was a selfish act to try and stop someone from succeeding in life. I learned that just because you won't or can't make a move like i will doesn't mean that you should try to stop someone from doing so just to please your need. I don't know what it's like to not make money, but i do know what it's like to not have money. I'm trying to get to a point in life where i can bring my mom back to the States and give her a lavish worry and stress free life.
9months
see you there, where ever there is.
poise and purpose
9months
see you there, where ever there is.
poise and purpose
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Saturday, July 31, 2010
Lost Boy
Got a phone call from a lost soul today.
He was trying to find his way back home.
Feeling anew I don't think he got that he was unwanted.
Oh lost soul, how did you find me this time?
I was just getting used to your existence being no longer in a mind so weary from hurt and pain
Go back to where you came from boy, go back and make peace with yourself.
Because your inner self is who i longed for and you fell short of giving that
I wanted you to meet me half way
Didn't want you to become my everything because my everything rests in a higher power
I wanted you to be my better half, understanding, loyal, and trustworthy
I hope you find yourself
Find yourself
Find yourself
....
He was trying to find his way back home.
Feeling anew I don't think he got that he was unwanted.
Oh lost soul, how did you find me this time?
I was just getting used to your existence being no longer in a mind so weary from hurt and pain
Go back to where you came from boy, go back and make peace with yourself.
Because your inner self is who i longed for and you fell short of giving that
I wanted you to meet me half way
Didn't want you to become my everything because my everything rests in a higher power
I wanted you to be my better half, understanding, loyal, and trustworthy
I hope you find yourself
Find yourself
Find yourself
....
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Shame
And for some reason i can't help but think that this is what you secretly wanted to happen. For me to be down and out like you were. And just as you put the blame on me, i'm putting it right back on you. I know that i shouldn't though because i allowed this to happen. I'm only looking forward to bouncing back and putting all of this behind me and focusing on the present. Man you really screwed me over!!!
Friday, July 16, 2010
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
1 Corinthians 13:4-7
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."
Monday, July 12, 2010
p.s
Happy birthday CC
Haven't forgotten about you. Trisha and I share some of the fondest memories of you and we laugh every time we reminisce.
Haven't forgotten about you. Trisha and I share some of the fondest memories of you and we laugh every time we reminisce.
Liberation
Today i did something i haven't done in a year. Today i did something and i feel darn good about it. Today i told the truth (not that i'm a liar), but in the past year when i've been asked how it is i'm doing, i always gave them the answer they wanted to hear, which was 'i'm fine.' Today, i not only filled someone in on what i've been afraid to say, but i realized that it made me feel so much better than i've felt in the last couple months. Today i wish to no longer be put down, today i will do whatever it takes to protect and take care of myself. Today i can hear my mind again, i can hear my mind telling me that i should've done this a long time a go. Today i consider myself free.
And now i dedicate this song and many more to myself, Destiny's Child - Free
I love me
I've always loved me
My love was just blindsided by the one i had building for someone else
I lost sight of ME trying to do you
But now i have forevermore to do me and smile while doing it as i am while typing this
Two things i always have in the midst of whatever is going on in my life, good or bad: Poise and Purpose.
My mother would be proud of me if she was to hear my story
....i hope this feeling isn't temporary because i need it for all the days of my life.
xoxo Bella Maxine
And now i dedicate this song and many more to myself, Destiny's Child - Free
I love me
I've always loved me
My love was just blindsided by the one i had building for someone else
I lost sight of ME trying to do you
But now i have forevermore to do me and smile while doing it as i am while typing this
Two things i always have in the midst of whatever is going on in my life, good or bad: Poise and Purpose.
My mother would be proud of me if she was to hear my story
....i hope this feeling isn't temporary because i need it for all the days of my life.
xoxo Bella Maxine
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Writer's Block
I'll write everything away if i could
all the pain and sorrow
i can't for now
but until then this is a start
i'll write our future down if i could
i'll write our names in the clouds if i could reach
i'll even get to the book life just so we'd be safe
if i could write our ending it'd be a happily ever after
i might just be thinking too far ahead
let's just start off with tomorrow and right now
if i could write our right now
i would skip the chapters to the part where we're in each others arms at the day break
if i could write our right now i would leave out all the tears and include the smiles
i'll write in our jokes and laughs
i'll exclude everyone that isn't you
i can't write our future and have it come true
but i can write what my perfect is and look to this note to remind me [of you]
i can't write away the pain and sorrow even if i tried
but in my mind
i can rewrite the unhappy moments and have it seem as if they never were
i'm willing to do all this for you
for us
for love
p&p
all the pain and sorrow
i can't for now
but until then this is a start
i'll write our future down if i could
i'll write our names in the clouds if i could reach
i'll even get to the book life just so we'd be safe
if i could write our ending it'd be a happily ever after
i might just be thinking too far ahead
let's just start off with tomorrow and right now
if i could write our right now
i would skip the chapters to the part where we're in each others arms at the day break
if i could write our right now i would leave out all the tears and include the smiles
i'll write in our jokes and laughs
i'll exclude everyone that isn't you
i can't write our future and have it come true
but i can write what my perfect is and look to this note to remind me [of you]
i can't write away the pain and sorrow even if i tried
but in my mind
i can rewrite the unhappy moments and have it seem as if they never were
i'm willing to do all this for you
for us
for love
p&p
Monday, May 10, 2010
A letter to my lost friend
Dear Friend,
I miss you so much it's not even funny. If everyone else has forgotten about you just know that i haven't and will never. I remember the first time we met, first party, first meal, first deep talk, i remember it all. I'm smiling now just remembering all the first times. I don't have you number anymore, and i wish i did and you were a phone call away. I had a dream about you a couple months back and in it you told me not to worry or be afraid. You told me that you were doing fine and couldn't be any happier. I wish you could be happier here in the presence of your family and friends but i understand the circumstances. I want to tell you everything that i have planned and for you to give me advice. I want to hear things from your perspective. Soon we'll meet again but until then the past moments we've shared are fresh in my mind.
Please come back to me in my dreams.
Kirk Franklin - Hide Me
<3
I miss you so much it's not even funny. If everyone else has forgotten about you just know that i haven't and will never. I remember the first time we met, first party, first meal, first deep talk, i remember it all. I'm smiling now just remembering all the first times. I don't have you number anymore, and i wish i did and you were a phone call away. I had a dream about you a couple months back and in it you told me not to worry or be afraid. You told me that you were doing fine and couldn't be any happier. I wish you could be happier here in the presence of your family and friends but i understand the circumstances. I want to tell you everything that i have planned and for you to give me advice. I want to hear things from your perspective. Soon we'll meet again but until then the past moments we've shared are fresh in my mind.
Please come back to me in my dreams.
Kirk Franklin - Hide Me
<3
broken bottle
i really wish i had my guitar with me right now
i'm telling you, all my poetry needs is a melody to flow to
ughh what has become of you??
sometimes i love you and other times i don't like you at all
but more times than none i ask why i'm doing this
honeymoon stage has been over
i'm telling you, all my poetry needs is a melody to flow to
ughh what has become of you??
sometimes i love you and other times i don't like you at all
but more times than none i ask why i'm doing this
honeymoon stage has been over
Friday, April 30, 2010
Talk To Her
A reminder just in case you forgot...
"Talk To Her"
When you talk to her talk to her
Like you'd want somebody to
Talk to your mama
Don't get smart with her
Have a heart to heart
With her just like you
Would with your daughter
Cause everything you do or say
You got to live with every day
She's somebody's baby
She's somebody's sister
She's somebody's mama
Now when you go to her
Speak truthfully
Honest as you can be, from your heart
You're in a situation
But you're losing patience
Take your time and look her in the eyes
When you just can't find the words you want
And it's hard to reach a point
Where you both can understand
Don't just tell the truth
But tell the whole truth
It'll make a better man out of you
I think it's good for your karma
Now let's keep it real
Nothing in the world will ever exist without the opposite
There has to be a sun and a moon
A man and a woman
And that's just the way it is
You gotta talk to her
When you talk to her talk to her
Like you want somebody to
Talk to your mama
Just like you'd fight for your sister
If you knew that someone dissed her
How you gonna care for your daughter
Turn around and talk bad about her mama
Same way you listen to your auntie
Never interrupt while she speaks
Make your words sweet like candy
As if you were talking to your granny yeah
If you really love her then (say so)
And If you really need her then (say so)
You Love the way she thinks (say so)
You love the way she speaks (say so)
When you need some good conversation (say so)
Say so (say so)
If you want her in your life (say so)
You want her to be your wife (say so)
Tell her she's your best friend (say so) (alright)
You'll be there to the end (alright)(say so)
If you're thinking about leaving (say so)
If you wonder where she going (say so)
--the beautiful India Arie
"Talk To Her"
When you talk to her talk to her
Like you'd want somebody to
Talk to your mama
Don't get smart with her
Have a heart to heart
With her just like you
Would with your daughter
Cause everything you do or say
You got to live with every day
She's somebody's baby
She's somebody's sister
She's somebody's mama
Now when you go to her
Speak truthfully
Honest as you can be, from your heart
You're in a situation
But you're losing patience
Take your time and look her in the eyes
When you just can't find the words you want
And it's hard to reach a point
Where you both can understand
Don't just tell the truth
But tell the whole truth
It'll make a better man out of you
I think it's good for your karma
Now let's keep it real
Nothing in the world will ever exist without the opposite
There has to be a sun and a moon
A man and a woman
And that's just the way it is
You gotta talk to her
When you talk to her talk to her
Like you want somebody to
Talk to your mama
Just like you'd fight for your sister
If you knew that someone dissed her
How you gonna care for your daughter
Turn around and talk bad about her mama
Same way you listen to your auntie
Never interrupt while she speaks
Make your words sweet like candy
As if you were talking to your granny yeah
If you really love her then (say so)
And If you really need her then (say so)
You Love the way she thinks (say so)
You love the way she speaks (say so)
When you need some good conversation (say so)
Say so (say so)
If you want her in your life (say so)
You want her to be your wife (say so)
Tell her she's your best friend (say so) (alright)
You'll be there to the end (alright)(say so)
If you're thinking about leaving (say so)
If you wonder where she going (say so)
--the beautiful India Arie
The Truth
Cause he is the truth
said he is so real
and i love the way that he makes me feel
and if i am a reflection of him then i must be fly cause
his light it shines so bright i wouldn't lie
There ain't no substitute for the truth
either it is or isnt
cause he is the truth
you see the truth it, needs no proof
either it is or it isnt
Cause he is the truth
Now you know the truth by the way it feels
and if I am a reflection of him then I must be fly
cause he is yes he isI wonder does he know
because he is..
i wonder does he know...
said he is so real
and i love the way that he makes me feel
and if i am a reflection of him then i must be fly cause
his light it shines so bright i wouldn't lie
There ain't no substitute for the truth
either it is or isnt
cause he is the truth
you see the truth it, needs no proof
either it is or it isnt
Cause he is the truth
Now you know the truth by the way it feels
and if I am a reflection of him then I must be fly
cause he is yes he isI wonder does he know
because he is..
i wonder does he know...
Sunday, April 18, 2010
I can't even deal
Dang i miss my blog!!
Pain comes in so many forms, which ever form it comes in it still brings grief.
I feel pain
......
I'm an emotional, which means i think and act using logic and not by emotions.
Why do we fight with the self?
I am at war with mySELF
peace of mind peace of mind peace of mind... oh how i look far for thee
Why do we fight with the self?
I am at war with mySELF
peace of mind peace of mind peace of mind... oh how i look far for thee
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Chikito
It's the little things and the joy they bring. A simple smile, a phone call just to say hello, even one of these "you're beautiful, i love everything about you" will suffice. But idk some people just haven't been trained or had the proper experience to do so. It's the act of going out of your way without having to think twice about it or being told to do so. Sometimes you have to do what's best and usually what's best isn't something you agree with but is something you just do.
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