Today i did something i haven't done in a year. Today i did something and i feel darn good about it. Today i told the truth (not that i'm a liar), but in the past year when i've been asked how it is i'm doing, i always gave them the answer they wanted to hear, which was 'i'm fine.' Today, i not only filled someone in on what i've been afraid to say, but i realized that it made me feel so much better than i've felt in the last couple months. Today i wish to no longer be put down, today i will do whatever it takes to protect and take care of myself. Today i can hear my mind again, i can hear my mind telling me that i should've done this a long time a go. Today i consider myself free.
And now i dedicate this song and many more to myself, Destiny's Child - Free
I love me
I've always loved me
My love was just blindsided by the one i had building for someone else
I lost sight of ME trying to do you
But now i have forevermore to do me and smile while doing it as i am while typing this
Two things i always have in the midst of whatever is going on in my life, good or bad: Poise and Purpose.
My mother would be proud of me if she was to hear my story
....i hope this feeling isn't temporary because i need it for all the days of my life.
xoxo Bella Maxine
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