The time will come soon enough when i make the decision to stay or leave California. As of right now, there's a 80% to 20% chance that i'm out of here. When i awake in the morning, i have nothing to look forward to but my future, no family to call on or visit, and def not a suitable enough companion who is strong emotionally and mentally. My calling will soon be here and i will no longer be a part of a city that isn't growing. I do hope that when i do leave that the friends i do have left make time to come visit me where ever i decide to start my new journey. I want all of my friends to know that there is life outside of California, there is life outside of your city and it isn't Las Vegas. There are so many places to go and people to meet. Many of you - my friends - are scared to start on your own personal journey. You all know me and know that i have been doing and living for myself for a while now and it isn't going to change. I want to go elsewhere i want to meet people and learn about their history and share mine with them when i become comfortable. I gave up the idea of moving out of state for someONE, later to find out that it was a selfish act to try and stop someone from succeeding in life. I learned that just because you won't or can't make a move like i will doesn't mean that you should try to stop someone from doing so just to please your need. I don't know what it's like to not make money, but i do know what it's like to not have money. I'm trying to get to a point in life where i can bring my mom back to the States and give her a lavish worry and stress free life.


9months
see you there, where ever there is.
poise and purpose