A million words between us will never be enough. I don't want to rush what we have because i don't want to run out of time. But if time does run out, I'll breathe you in and hold you in forever. I hope you'll still look at me and feel the same way about me a year from now, three years from now, four kids from now, and forevermore. I pray we never run out of time.

I'll keep you young at heart while we become old lovers together.

I love ME

how can i keep saying that i'm over it and you but yet i continue to dwell on the past
i'm doing nothing but damaging my mental by not moving forward
i've been in an awesomely great mood since Friday night
a lot of it has to do with watching For Colored Girls
THERE IS A WAY OUT
i made that way out for myself when i finally did something i had been afraid to do for months
i know now that there is no turning back
this is an affirmation to myself.. everything is going to be okay... everything has been okay.. accept it, claim it, live it
my good days have been outweighing my bad and darling, I WILL NOT COMPLAIN
throw what you want my way and I WILL OVERCOME
say what you want to say about me and I WILL BRUSH IT OFF
see it takes more than a broken heart to keep me from SMILING
YOU CAN'T TAKE AWAY MY JOY, i won't allow you
it's as if i had pity on myself, only speaking of what i want to do and be but never actually doing and becoming it.
i've gone on everyday for the past 3 months not knowing how much of a good thing i did
i don't have any regrets
i just know that i still have myself.. i stayed true to the character that i have grown up to be
yes the tears fall from my eyes
and i wipe each one away
who says soldiers don't cry?
because honey, i cry every time i'm alone and don't understand things
we all have our PUBLIC, PERSONAL, and PRIVATE selves
the public is the self you portray when you're outdoors (work, school..), the way you dress, speak
your personal self is the person you show when around close friends and family
and lastly, the private self is the person you are when you are alone, the person that you may be truly at war with
i have come to learn that my public and personal are the same person
it's time to get my private self on board
i realized that my private self was alone and in tears... my private self was needing to be rescued
in the midst of my emotional breakdowns i'm still living, and that is why I ROCK


two things i carry, POISE AND PURPOSE

um.. don't know where to begin.

images that will never erase
images that always replay
images that won't leave because we live in them and find it hard to let go
images that stay the same because we wish to live in sorrow and have pity on ourselves

images

images once mistaken as the only reality, there's no way out

there is a way out
look past the images of the dark and look to the images of light and the future

Writer's Block

I'll write everything away if i could
all the pain and sorrow
i can't for now
but until then this is a start
i'll write our future down if i could
i'll write our names in the clouds if i could reach
i'll even get to the book life just so we'd be safe
if i could write our ending it'd be a happily ever after

i might just be thinking too far ahead

let's just start off with tomorrow and right now
if i could write our right now
i would skip the chapters to the part where we're in each others arms at the day break
if i could write our right now i would leave out all the tears and include the smiles
i'll write in our jokes and laughs
i'll exclude everyone that isn't you

i can't write our future and have it come true
but i can write what my perfect is and look to this note to remind me [of you]
i can't write away the pain and sorrow even if i tried
but in my mind
i can rewrite the unhappy moments and have it seem as if they never were

i'm willing to do all this for you
for us
for love

p&p