I don't wanna cry no mo'

Old Soul

i write rhymes that fill the lines of my devoted heart
i shed tears that fill the cup of my morning tea
i like hard like a kid's brand new toy he/she sleeps with
and if the paper in my notebook was the shape of a heart, this is what my heart looks like, feels like, and is.
i stand strong like Kunta the slave being beaten
i fake smiles like Harlem in the 20's when the white man did and still does suppress them
i sing blues as if this is ragtime and i can tell you want flew over the cuckoos nest
my walk is a graceful stroll
i stand out even when i stand alone
i used to want to live the American dream, now i wish to dream like Gatsby did
see, my rhymes are me, the words you don't hear like a silent mime
i bleed volumes
and yet i still love and forgive
because that is what i've been taught
and in the end that is what HE died on the cross for

India Arie

good morning silence good morning to myself
good morning to the pain in the center of my chest

it's crazy how much i miss a simple good morning kiss
good morning independecne or is it loneliness
i know i said i wanted this but i have regrets

i pray for God's will to be done
the very next day you were gone

good morning to the harsh realities of life
and good morning to the fact we're not husband and wife
we made a promise to stay
destiny got in the way

good morning acceptance
good morning inner strength
i'm loving every moment even the strain

good morning optimism
good morning to my faith
good morning to the beginning of a brand new day

i know that God's will will be done
so i lay down my pain and i'm moving on

it's a good morning afterall



I am not easily broken - p&P

No more ties, this is it. Breaking up is hard to do but it needs to be done.

Wale ft Jean Grae - Goodbye (Jean Grae's verse though... she bangs)

The War - Wale ft Daniel Merriweather

Momma told me be careful who you love... we was different though, things have gotten difficult

Why we gotta argue, why we gotta fight
I just wanna love you, i wanna make it right
It's like we both forgot what we were fighting for
So tell me why are we at war

I just wanted to be at peace with you and if i gotta settle for a piece of you then i gotta say peace to you. With all due respect i do respect you enough to expect; effort is all i ask, if we gon' last more i gotta ask for more, and if that means i'm asking for too much i'm sure we'll end up as our last or past. We bash, we blast, we shoot, we lose, we pass - WAR

Word.

the blood in my veins runs deep and thick
the blood in my veins traces its roots back to the motherland
the motherland of conformity and slavery
my blood, my sweat, my strength, and my tears
all come from my place of peace
Mama Africa
your pain will forever be learned and heard all over

see we may look alike but we have differences
see i know how to respect and not diss-respect
my strength comes from the mothers who walk around with their children on their backs
my strength comes from the hot sun beating down Las Gidi
see i'm strong because i know my roots
you're strong because you know you're hood

i dream the dreams the slaves never got to see
i live the dream MLK prophesied
with the bondage and shackles broken
we are now to free to do as is
but with social bondage and mental slavery
are we really free
every step we make and take has been predestined by our predecessors
who sit above and continue to be above

Mama Africa how can we connect when half truths are told about your upbringing
The one's who raged about your worth sit back and let you rot
Shame on America and Europe
I'm waiting for your come up
I feel your pain even though i'm away
I hear your children cry
rape
theft
excision
polygamy

everything will be alright. You are not forgotten
Africa

The time will come soon enough when i make the decision to stay or leave California. As of right now, there's a 80% to 20% chance that i'm out of here. When i awake in the morning, i have nothing to look forward to but my future, no family to call on or visit, and def not a suitable enough companion who is strong emotionally and mentally. My calling will soon be here and i will no longer be a part of a city that isn't growing. I do hope that when i do leave that the friends i do have left make time to come visit me where ever i decide to start my new journey. I want all of my friends to know that there is life outside of California, there is life outside of your city and it isn't Las Vegas. There are so many places to go and people to meet. Many of you - my friends - are scared to start on your own personal journey. You all know me and know that i have been doing and living for myself for a while now and it isn't going to change. I want to go elsewhere i want to meet people and learn about their history and share mine with them when i become comfortable. I gave up the idea of moving out of state for someONE, later to find out that it was a selfish act to try and stop someone from succeeding in life. I learned that just because you won't or can't make a move like i will doesn't mean that you should try to stop someone from doing so just to please your need. I don't know what it's like to not make money, but i do know what it's like to not have money. I'm trying to get to a point in life where i can bring my mom back to the States and give her a lavish worry and stress free life.


9months
see you there, where ever there is.
poise and purpose

I just want to do right...