Monday, December 5, 2011

22 years old.

As the year nears its end in a matter of 26 days i have a lot to be thankful for. I have come a long way spiritually, mentally, and emotionally. I realize where my faith lies and try not to let the flesh cast a cloth over my eyes. I'm happy and i think that's all that really matters to me right now. I have a lot to be thankful for. The friendships i formed are still going strong. I am in good health and stress free. I am fully clothed and nurtured and my needs and wants always seem to have a way of getting met. I am just thankful for life and everything in it that has made me who I am. I am thankful to have a wonderful, omnipotent, omnipresent God. Inshallah 2012 will be even greater.

I bid you all [whoever you all are] a Happy Holidays, Merry Christmas, and a Happy New Year....until we meet again.

Numbers

What is your number?

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Another turn

What do women want? Honestly, we want a lot. And many of us feel like men owe it to us to be good. But given, not all women are good, and not all men are bad. I don't know what it is but i listen as my friends tell me what they're going through with other guys and i really wish they would listen to me when i advise them. But i should know better. I should know that we, as women, get blinded by emotions and become unable to think straight. In due time we will learn, it'll be the hard way, and i hope unfortunately we don't regret it.

A year ago this month i was in a place of darkness, fear, and borderline depression -which i did later become fully depressed a month after. A year later i am able to say that i am not the same person i was last year. I have grown so much and have become a great individual. I mean if you look back at my posts from 2010 you would read that i was a sad and distraught girl. Thank God for his grace and mercy that's for sure.

I'm happy. I'm smiling. I'm blessed.

God bless you.

Monday, August 1, 2011

Hello

hi.

A tornado flew around my room befor you came, excuse the mess it made

Do you not think so far ahead? cus i be thinking 'bout forever

No, i don't like you, i just thought you were cool enough to kick it

Do you not think so far ahead? cus i be thinking 'bout forever

Thursday, July 14, 2011

i'm trying this writing thing and it's very difficult. i know that i can finish. i just don't know when. the finished product is what i'm looking forward to. looking forward to printing it out on paper and feeling the thickness of the pages. and sharing it...i think.

i feel sad and depressed when i write. riding down memory lane on a painful past isn't always fun.

pray for ya girl. this baby is becoming my dream. i need to and will finish.

Sunday, June 26, 2011

I am my Mother's child

So many things i want to do and places i want to see. Fact is that everything that i do i always have my mom in mind. I love her so much. I hadn't spoke to her in a week and when she finally called me today i cried on the phone. Just hearing her voice made me so happy yet so sad because she's close to me but still far. I want her to be near me. We always have such a good time when we're together. I understand her. She's my best friend. My mom always tells me stories about her younger days and how she roamed around with her friends, partying, and mingling with boys. She never got to finish college, which is why i owe it not only to myself but to my mother to get a post-grad degree. I feel like i'm living and experiencing a life my mother never got to be a part of or enjoy. I tell her all the time that she is in me and living through me. Always giving her the play by play so that she isn't left out on any details. If what i have in mind is truly fulfilled i know that she would be even more proud of ya girl.


I LOVE YOU MARIA
xoxo

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Still beautiful

Still the same only a little different.


You got me up so high my feet are scraping the sky.


;)


xoxo