so much to say, and there is enough time. and so it goes.....

So my cousin just sent me this heartfelt and real message on facebook and it made me think. Here's an excerpt "Think about all the things you have done in darkness or the skeletons that you may have in your closet bc we all keep them from our loved ones because we are ashamed."

I've been asking God for change in my life and telling him that i am ready. But recently, i finally listened and heard the signs saying that i am indeed not as ready as i say i am. I'm saying that i'm ready for change but my actions speak/show otherwise. So until my actions show change is only when i will receive the change that i am asking for in God's time. It's just as simple as it reads. Until i make the changes i want to see in myself can there truly be a real change to my existence in life. Too much has been going on in the past month and i have told myself not to worry, and i'm not. I know very well that patience is a virtue and i'm not on my time, i'm on HIS. As much as i would like instant gratification right now it wouldn't seem as sweet when it does arrive if i do not wait for it. My situation right now isn't as bad as others i've been through and i still fought throughout it all and came out VICTORIOUS THROUGH HIM.

Be blessed,
P&P

Five Fun Facts

1. i sucked on my two fingers from birth up until 10th grade, age 14 for me. my mother told me that i was rarely breastfed and was never fed from a bottle (only if you knew the tactics and methods my fam/dentist tried to use to get me to stop )
2. i killed my mom's cat unknowingly when i was younger. it wasn't a deliberate action, it just simply happened by mistake. and then i lied about it afterwards because i knew my mom would be hurt. we buried it in the yard... years later my sister and i dug it up and the dead cat was milky and you could see the bones
3. I performed in the 5th grade talent show. i was one of the back up singers/dancers in our take of Brandy Ft Monica "The Boy Is Mine" i also sang a duet with Nathalie Herrera and we performed Celine Dion's theme song to Titanic. In 6th grade, my elementary school called both Nathalie and I back to perform for parents.
4. i got in house suspension in 5th grade for crossing out Ms. Trinh's face on the class picture including putting needles on her chair for her to sit on
5. i threatened two girls in 6th grade because they didn't want to be my friend =/

6. this isn't really about me but... a gun has been held in front of my little sister's face by armed robbers. and because she had to witness that at such a young age i love her much more and would never wish that on anyone. God was truly with her and her nanny.


now you know... so love me more =)

Wed & Thurs

I just finished catching up on last week's episode of Lost and Grey's Anatomy. And i have to say that it was the best episodes ever out of all seasons. I'm always at the edge of my seat yelling at the t.v when i watch Lost, but Grey's did it for me because by the end of the episode i was in tears. There is nothing like good t.v i tell you. Now i have to wait until the fall for the new season of Lost :-(

Sweet Serenity

:-)

On some days i really hate my job and dred coming to it. On other days i like my job because it's real chill and most of the time i end up doing what i want to do. I can never seem to come up with a straight answer for this question but here it is; would you rather do what you love and get paid little for it, or hate what you do and get paid great for it??

Well you have enough drive to pull it through [with whatever you decide to do]. Rayski you don't know how much those words helped me make my decision. Thank you and i love you much

MIMS

Music is NOT my saviour but there is just something about it that works for me. For every mood/emotion i'm feeling, there is a song that describes it perfectly, gets me through it, and even gives me alternatives. It's just real. I love jazz, old school, rock, country, gospel, new school, up and coming, and definitely underground. Eclectic, that's it!!!


moving on...
It's spring break and i'm working everyday of it. I work for LAUSD and almost every other popular site is blocked so there isn't much i can do to kill time. I used to know the codes to bypass the blocks back in h.s but i don't remember them anymore. So what do i do to kill time? Apart from listening to my talkative co-worker, i watch movies and get hip to more new music. While you're busy sleeping, i'm busy making $$. Holla at your guala (wth is a guala?)