Up-all-night

I literally spent all of last night and early this morning talking to someone that i haven't known for a long (only a week) but who i call a friend. We joke about how so much can change within a week, and it is true, so much has changed. It is utterly liberating and almost gratifying to have someone to talk to and know that the person on the receiving end isn't judging you but is instead rooting for you to be an overcomer and victorious.

And then i wonder why i was never able to build such relationships as this one with my new friend with the friendships i've had/held on to for many years. That's when it hits me, every person who comes into your life, whether a friend or stranger, comes to play a purpose. The purpose may not be revealed right away and may even take years but you need all of these people in your life to help strengthen you as you proceed to your calling. Jesus knew all along that Judas was going to betray him and he still kept him around. If it wasn't for the betrayal then Jesus would have not been captured at that moment and died on the cross only to resurrect three days later.

Thank you, friend.

Song of the week: All Consuming Fire

Spirit of Discernment

I have spent the past two years sharpening my spirit of discernment. I just got off the phone with a relative and she mentioned that i'm now able to discern intelligently and dutifully because of the time i've spent in church. We agreed to disagree and i explained to her that i've always had the gift of discernment since i was a child but because i was so young and unable to appreciate and understand my gifting, i nurtured it and kept my observations to myself. It wasn't until two years ago that God began a newer work in me to where i was able to be a light in my discerning. And i'm still growing. I continue to "develop an above average knowledge of the Bible; seek confirmation and evaluation of others; and maintain a spirit of openness to new insight; new discoveries."


p&P

Oh man

I knew from the first of the year that God was doing a new work in me. He was breaking down walls and barriers in my life. I accepted it and welcomed this change. We're now in April and i have seen what God is doing in me. He has given me the vision to write and share my story. He is working with me to break the wall down that i have built up to harbor my thoughts and feelings. He is allowing me to speak freely of things that i was once ashamed of. Most importantly, he is giving me a chance to tell my testimony by way of a book. I see now that i am also being tested when it comes to conversing with new friends. God is like, are you going to revert back into your box or use the opening that i have created and break free and be You again? I am being me, AGAIN!


God is great!