22 years old.

As the year nears its end in a matter of 26 days i have a lot to be thankful for. I have come a long way spiritually, mentally, and emotionally. I realize where my faith lies and try not to let the flesh cast a cloth over my eyes. I'm happy and i think that's all that really matters to me right now. I have a lot to be thankful for. The friendships i formed are still going strong. I am in good health and stress free. I am fully clothed and nurtured and my needs and wants always seem to have a way of getting met. I am just thankful for life and everything in it that has made me who I am. I am thankful to have a wonderful, omnipotent, omnipresent God. Inshallah 2012 will be even greater.

I bid you all [whoever you all are] a Happy Holidays, Merry Christmas, and a Happy New Year....until we meet again.

Numbers

What is your number?

Another turn

What do women want? Honestly, we want a lot. And many of us feel like men owe it to us to be good. But given, not all women are good, and not all men are bad. I don't know what it is but i listen as my friends tell me what they're going through with other guys and i really wish they would listen to me when i advise them. But i should know better. I should know that we, as women, get blinded by emotions and become unable to think straight. In due time we will learn, it'll be the hard way, and i hope unfortunately we don't regret it.

A year ago this month i was in a place of darkness, fear, and borderline depression -which i did later become fully depressed a month after. A year later i am able to say that i am not the same person i was last year. I have grown so much and have become a great individual. I mean if you look back at my posts from 2010 you would read that i was a sad and distraught girl. Thank God for his grace and mercy that's for sure.

I'm happy. I'm smiling. I'm blessed.

God bless you.

Hello

hi.

A tornado flew around my room befor you came, excuse the mess it made

Do you not think so far ahead? cus i be thinking 'bout forever

No, i don't like you, i just thought you were cool enough to kick it

Do you not think so far ahead? cus i be thinking 'bout forever

i'm trying this writing thing and it's very difficult. i know that i can finish. i just don't know when. the finished product is what i'm looking forward to. looking forward to printing it out on paper and feeling the thickness of the pages. and sharing it...i think.

i feel sad and depressed when i write. riding down memory lane on a painful past isn't always fun.

pray for ya girl. this baby is becoming my dream. i need to and will finish.

I am my Mother's child

So many things i want to do and places i want to see. Fact is that everything that i do i always have my mom in mind. I love her so much. I hadn't spoke to her in a week and when she finally called me today i cried on the phone. Just hearing her voice made me so happy yet so sad because she's close to me but still far. I want her to be near me. We always have such a good time when we're together. I understand her. She's my best friend. My mom always tells me stories about her younger days and how she roamed around with her friends, partying, and mingling with boys. She never got to finish college, which is why i owe it not only to myself but to my mother to get a post-grad degree. I feel like i'm living and experiencing a life my mother never got to be a part of or enjoy. I tell her all the time that she is in me and living through me. Always giving her the play by play so that she isn't left out on any details. If what i have in mind is truly fulfilled i know that she would be even more proud of ya girl.


I LOVE YOU MARIA
xoxo

Still beautiful

Still the same only a little different.


You got me up so high my feet are scraping the sky.


;)


xoxo 

Wow.

I remember June 24, 2006. A day after my high school graduation i was already beginning the new journey of entering college by starting the EOP Summer Bridge Program. Almost five years later, i'm being honored for my scholastic achievements at the Honors Convocation and receiving my BA degree in Psychology from California State University Northridge. It's really bitter sweet. I've met a lot of people and lost some friends to death and others to the way of the world. One thing i have not lost and won't ever forget are the memories that are forever instilled in my heart and mind of the people, places, and things i've encountered in my tenure as an undergraduate student. Most importantly, i learned about myself, grew up in the process, and figured out what i want to do with my career. I can admit that i stayed true to myself while i was in college. I didn't succumb to the peer pressures of life and everything i engaged in was done consciously and without guilt. I love my true close friends that i met. I hope that five years from now we're still keeping in touch -- i hope this isn't wishful thinking. I've learned so much about myself in this last year that it has and will only better me. For the people that truly know me well and my character, i hope that i have made you proud as friends of mine. And i hope you continue to believe in me as i believe that you as well can be the best you can be.

The sky is the limit.

I love all ya'll. Class of 06 --Summer Bridge

RIP Michael aka Goliath, CC, Kenny aka Showtime, Diron

Touching - John 3:16

Still writing...

The whole process of writing isn't as easy as i thought it would be. Not that i thought it would be a breeze to shoot out the correct words but i didn't think it was going to be like this. Having time isn't the only factor but the fact that as i'm writing i always go back down memory lane and relive everything that was going on in my thoughts.


to be continued...

DEVIL BE LOOSE

I was on my way to a job interview this morning in the pouring rain when all of a sudden my car starts to overheat on the freeway. Can you imagine, my car is overheating when it's pouring outside? I don't have roadside assistance so i begin to go into a panic. All these negative thoughts are running through my head about how bad it would be for me to be stuck on the freeway. And then it hit me, i serve an all mighty God, so why fear. I began speaking life into my car and casting away the devil for trying to stop me from making it to my interview. I mean, i was in full prayer mode and whenever i mentioned God's name i saw my thermometer slowing falling back down to the cold level. Oh no i didn't just stop there. I kept on rebuking all evil because i know that no weapons or transgressions formed against me shall prosper. When i stopped praying my car started to overheat again, and that's when i went right back into prayer mode, in full defense.

I ended up making it to my interview, which ended up being canceled. Needless to say, my God is an awesome God and he showed that to me again today.

I still need a new car though, but i'm working on that.

Valentine's Day

Day of the lovers. Feb 14th.

In previous years when i wasn't in a relationship i was always sad on Vals Day because, well clearly, i didn't have a valentine and was alone. I mostly felt sad for myself. Not this year though! Even though i'm not in a committed relationship, today was a very happy day for me. Nothing about it was sad. In fact, it was filled with joy. There is no better joy than loving yourself and being happy with the way things are. This is no lonely post either, but gosh i am happy and haven't been this happy in a year. Good things are to come and i know it. Just knowing where i was a year ago today and knowing that i am no where near there again is satisfying. God is great!!


Be blessed :)

writing.a.book

Le sigh --I love this song